The power of invisibility Part 1

Freedom! That's all I have ever wanted in my life. Freedom from the chaos of people around me, freedom from societal obligations, freedom from the need of a job, the need to socialize and be accepted by a group of the society. I realize a lot of people take this term too lightly all our lives, and I have come to realize realize that from the time we are born we are bound by the chains of life. The need to make friends, the need to attend school, be disciplined so you are rewarded for what the society thinks is correct behavior and punished for what the society thinks is wrong. What no one tells us is that while we are conditioned and trained so seriously in our youth, but as we grow up, these values change. They sometimes change so drastically that we are forced to question our own reality; our own sense of morality.

That is why I needed freedom, freedom to be who I wanted to be, say what I wanted to say, when I want to say and how I want to say it. No amount of money, people, jobs or career could ever give me that.

Today was NOT like every other morning. As I was walking to work, I could see the withering autumn leaves. The mixture of yellow, orange, red, and green were so delightful to the eye that I had to stop for a moment and take a deep breath to take it all in. This peaceful moment was suddenly infected by a noise. Only a few yards away I saw someone neatly piling the leaves and trimming the ferns. Naturally grown flowers and grass were cut and torn apart to be replaced with beautifully colored ones and arranged in an orderly fashion.

This was my problem with life as I knew it, humans have infected every part of the earth, exerted their will and control on mother earth to make it their own. I never want to be a part of this world, and all I want is freedom!

As a resolve to gain my freedom, this morning I made some major changes in the way I responded to the other people in my life

When everyone wished me a good morning at work, I did not respond, I had never done this before and no one seemed to notice. At the cafeteria when the kindly stranger asked me whether I wanted some sugar or milk from the counter, I simply ignored them and got it myself. When my friends called me to meet up, I simply ignored their calls, and the calls stopped coming in a few days.

It was small measures like this, but surely I managed to find my way to freedom. A few weeks after, I quit my job, used my savings to find a quieter home further away from the city. Moving to a new job in a quieter town meant that it was a new start, and I could exert my free will from the start. My quality of life had improved greatly. I was more productive with my cooking and I was spending more time focusing on myself and my passions. I did not know how long this was going to last, but I was finally happy with my new freedom-- or maybe the power of invisibility.